Eating and Drinking

This picture has absolutely nothing to do with this post, but it never ceases to bring a smile to my face.

So let's get to the crux of this post. I get tired of eating and drinking in order to sustain the mileage and workouts I'm doing. Sounds weird, I know, but I truly get tired of it. Drinking more means more trips to the bathroom, including getting up in the middle of the night to pee. And since I already don't sleep very well, getting up to pee is a problem.

Eating - It's not that I don't get hungry; I just get tired of trying to figure out what to eat, when to eat, what kind of stash I should keep at work so I can eat little bits throughout the day, etc. I'm also one of those people who has a wholly unrealistic (translates to "I'm an idiot") idea of what her body looks like, so I'm always "afraid" of gaining weight. Besides, extra pounds means more to lug around on the trails.

Anyway, this is becoming has become an issue I need to get a handle on now rather than later, as I know I am sabotaging myself by my lack of eating and drinking as needed.

This picture epitomizes my life the last 10 months. My husband and I fell into such a deep, dark hole, that at times there seemed to be no light at the end of the tunnel. But we fought our way back, separately and together, the light continued to grow with each passing day.

Shorty has been back home for almost four weeks now. The changes in him are phenomenal. He smiles, he jokes, he has energy, he's content, he's happy - something I didn't think would ever be possible. He's happy. It may seem a small thing, but when you've been with someone for almost 27 years and, during that entire time he has never been truly happy, it's . . . it's indescribable.

I was reading an article of an interview with Sharon Stone in AARP Magazine today while waiting for my counseling appointment to begin. She said, "I thank God every day for what he has given me, and I thank Him for what he has taken away." This struck me at my very core. Shorty and I have lost a lot, but we have gained so much more! I have my husband and my friend back, we have a rejuvenated life together, we have each other.

I am so very proud of my husband and how far he has come. God has truly, truly blessed us.

Psalm 27:1-3
The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? Though an army encamp against me, my heart shall not fear; though war rise up against me, yet I will be confident.